Monday, March 3, 2014

What an interesting experience it is to be Human

I am sitting here looking out the window at the fresh foot of snow we just received here in North Idaho on March 3rd wondering what the Robins I have been seeing are thinking. I am assuming they aren't really thinking. I feel as if they always come at this time, and start looking for food and a place to build a nest. This is not so different than me. I don't know why, but the place I have called home for 33 years doesn't seem like the place I want to have my nest anymore. Wouldn't it be nice to be a little bird and flit and fly around without all the luggage we have to cart around to feel safe and secure in our nests? If I had one backpack I could put my life into I would be stoked!! So, what is it that is making feel unwelcome? My soul longs to breath the pinon pine trees while putting a wee bit of honey on a sopapilla looking over at the Sangre de Crista mountains in the Southwest. It longs to feel the wind in my hair, the sand between my toes, and the smell of saltwater on the Oregon Coast. I long to go iceskating on the dyckes, and indulge in good chocolate from Holland. I will always treasure the place I was born at, but I want to go where my soul longs to linger. Now, How do I do this on a paupers pension? I am not upset about my current flow of green energy. I just need advice on how to get a little more of it to follow my dreams. I have a long life to live, and I feel "now is the time to get on with it" as my teachers' teacher would say. She was and still is such in inspiring woman of her time. I am referring to the late great Rev. Master Houn Jiyu Kinnett. After she survived WWII she decided she was fortunate to do something with the rest of her life. So, she chose to go to Japan to become a monk. Her story of struggle and triumph is well documented in a book called The Wild White Goose. http://www.alibris.com/The-wild-white-goose-Jiyu-Kennett/book/7225964?matches=24 I have been an official lay buddhist now for almost one year. I took the precepts which show me how to be an upstanding citizen in society, and by myself. For me it has been the hardest year of my life. This happens when I realize how small I am in the big world. Finding complete independence has been intense. I am still not there yet, but when I do get there I suppose it will be when I experience paranirvana, or when I leave this glorious earth plane. My point here is can I be a monk in the world? Can I have my cake and eat it to? We are the ones we've been waiting for. I do find solace in the forest, or anywhere outdoors by myself or with a good friend. The Eternal is waiting. We just have to knock on the sky and listen. Be Well whomever decides to read all of this. In gassho _/\_ Jenn

1 comment:

  1. Wahooo. We are the Ones.... I so appreciate your Presence in the world. And know that you will have the Journeys you desire - as this last year has sure been a Trip! You are a Light for the world - keep on a Shining. Love, Light and La;-)ghter always Lindy

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